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post Dec 28 2005, 10:00 PM
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Hullo there idiot.

I see you hath stumbled upon my little board. It should be know as a warning that I am very depressed, driven to insanity by my "family". I also self-harm once in a while when my "brother" fights with me. But there are hardly any obvious reasons why I am like this, so I just whine about this crappy life of mine over and over again until they listen. But they don't. No-one cares. No-one ever does...

So, where were we? Ah, yes, I am new here and need somebody to help me through the unfamilarity, if that's even a word. I'm not that good a speller.

I hate this crappy life of mine so very much, why don't I end it all?

Answer that and be my friend.


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post Dec 28 2005, 10:06 PM
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Please note that you don't have to answer it to be my friend, but I would quite like you to answer it anyway.


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post Dec 28 2005, 10:11 PM
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Nice comeback.


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post Dec 28 2005, 10:17 PM
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To go on I add the fact that males are my mortal enemy. I hate all males, even though only a handful have ever been unkind to me. But their torments hurt me so. I hate them. I hate a lot of things. All I ever feel is pain, hatred and depression. The only thing I truly care about is my rabbit, and even then the feeling is not mutal. Or mutral. However you spell that word. She dislikes a lot of things, but she does suffer from a genetic problem which makes it hard to eat.

Next post will contain the song that I wrote. Oh joy(!)


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post Dec 28 2005, 10:22 PM
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DARKNESS

Darkness, Depression,
Poems and Repression,
I ask you why,
Please, do not lie.

There is not enough time,
I was in my prime,
Thingís ainít the same,
Since the day you came.

Thereís no room at the inn,
Iíve lost my next of Kin,
Goodbye,
I must not cryÖ

But I do,
And I miss you,
Donít go away,
The sun will come out another day.

Secrets and lies,
The little light dies,
Today it may rain,
And I`ll still be in pain.

I have no luck,
And life really sucks,
But Iíve got you,
So life isnít so blue.

With all my might,
I seize the light,
I hate thee,
So it will be.

I am a wicken,
It is how I am stricken,
The powers of the earth,
I got at my birth.

It may be dark,
But we can still have a lark,
Iím really confused,
I hate being used,

When I come you never can tell,
If I`ll cause hell,
I create war,
So Iím never a bore.

I hurt those close to me,
As you will see,
I cry when they die,
And I ask myself ďWhy?Ē

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Just a nice little ditty that took me an afternoon and some blood 'cause the knives looked so pretty on my skin...

I don't know why I wrote it, but I was depressed and it helped me feel better.

None of you care though, and I can understand that.


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Ihatethiscrappyl...
post Dec 28 2005, 10:26 PM
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*sigh* Hardly no-one posted. Why does this not surprize me? Nevermind, I'll just crawl into a hole and die. Bye. sad.gif


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post Dec 28 2005, 11:02 PM
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Ok, perhaps you aren't familiar with the concept of a forum, so allow me to just outline it in case you aren't aware. First of all, the 'board' refers to the actual forum itself, which contains threads. The string of replies which you have created here is a thread, as opposed to a board. Secondly, forums are different to instant messengers, or chat rooms, as people only reply when they are looking at the boards. You really need to leave a longer time to expect a reply to something, as it's reasonably unlikely that lots of people will have even read the topic in the 4 minutes you're leaving between posts. You can see how many people are online at the bottom of the front page (forum index).

Also, in regards to your depressed mood and misandrist attitudes, it's probably much more productive to seek some help about possible psychological problems rather than just, as you put it, whining over and over again. Furthermore, the personal concerns forum contains a thread dedicated to contact numbers for problems, and most likely has several threads in it which will contain content relevant to yours.

Hope that helps.


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post Dec 28 2005, 11:37 PM
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I could have written a short novel by this point
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Arf! Sorry, but I refuse to believe you are for real. There's just a faint whiff of 'attention seeking' about you, I'm afraid.

Take your misandrist views elsewhere. We don't tolerate bigotry on these boards.


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post Dec 29 2005, 08:24 AM
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QUOTE (Ihatethiscrappylifeofmine @ Dec 28 2005, 10:22 PM)
DARKNESS

Darkness, Depression,
Poems and Repression,
I ask you why,
Please, do not lie.

There is not enough time,
I was in my prime,
Thingís ainít the same,
Since the day you came.

Thereís no room at the inn,
Iíve lost my next of Kin,
Goodbye,
I must not cryÖ

But I do,
And I miss you,
Donít go away,
The sun will come out another day.

Secrets and lies,
The little light dies,
Today it may rain,
And I`ll still be in pain.

I have no luck,
And life really sucks,
But Iíve got you,
So life isnít so blue.

With all my might,
I seize the light,
I hate thee,
So it will be.

I am a wicken,
It is how I am stricken,
The powers of the earth,
I got at my birth.

It may be dark,
But we can still have a lark,
Iím really confused,
I hate being used,

When I come you never can tell,
If I`ll cause hell,
I create war,
So Iím never a bore.

I hurt those close to me,
As you will see,
I cry when they die,
And I ask myself  ďWhy?Ē

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That was great *looks away from the computer... has idei * I like your flow with the way you write that song/poem. Welcome to the forums and maybe you can start a topic were everyone writes their songs/poems. I hope we see you around. tongue.gif


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post Dec 29 2005, 08:38 AM
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QUOTE (little_bear @ Dec 28 2005, 11:37 PM)
Arf! Sorry, but I refuse to believe you are for real. There's just a faint whiff of 'attention seeking' about you, I'm afraid.

Take your misandrist views elsewhere. We don't tolerate bigotry on these boards.
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Come on little_bear dont say that she shouldnt come to the boards, shes proberly be though some bad time. Give her some time, ok.(please dont kill me little_bear i was only making a point.
I'm to young to die!!!!!!)<--Sarcasm


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post Dec 29 2005, 12:12 PM
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If this is for real then it reads very much like a parody of other people who feel this way.


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post Dec 29 2005, 04:55 PM
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This reminds me of the "My Soul is like a Hole" poem from "Open Mike Night." It's like a parody of the whole gothic/emo mindset.
I believe you meant that you are a "Wiccan," not a "wicken." It's a somewhat bad sign if you can't spell your own religion. The flow is decent, but your rhymes seem very forced.
If you are for real, then people will be glad to comfort you in Personal Concerns and you can read the list of helpful resources. We really are willing to be nice if you wait for responses and explain more about your problems. smile.gif

By the way, little_twit, that's the point of the Creations board. It's not usually very busy, but people are welcome to post their poems, songs, and artwork on there whenever they like.


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post Dec 29 2005, 11:24 PM
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What religion? I have none. I do not believe in an actual God, but rather a really cool force that controls the universe ans keeps it in balance. I just had that part because it ties in with me. I'm really earthical, if that word even exists, and love nature. Even though I hate eveything else. I also wrote another one about my love, but I don't have one, so you don't wanna hear it.

I don't know what or how I should feel. It all seems so unreal. I'm surrounded by idiots like my "brother" everyday, and it makes me crazy. I hate him, I hate most of my family. No-one cares, no-one ever does...


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post Dec 29 2005, 11:27 PM
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QUOTE (Ihatethiscrappylifeofmine @ Dec 30 2005, 12:24 AM)
I don't know what or how I should feel. It all seems so unreal. I'm surrounded by idiots like my "brother" everyday, and it makes me crazy. I hate him, I hate most of my family. No-one cares, no-one ever does...
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What, so, he's not your brother?

And "No-one cares, no-one ever does..." should become your catchphrase. Like Roy Walker off 'Catchphrase'

"Say what ya see!".

Legend.


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post Dec 29 2005, 11:32 PM
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Nope. Flick back a few posts and you will here about my moody rabbit. Apart from her, the few girls I hang out with, and my Gran, I hate most other lifeforms that I have met, even over the computer. I cannot tell you to leave, and even though I've already judged you, sorry in advance for what a fool you will see me be, I will not ask you to leave as that is rude in my book, and we don't want to be rude to one another now, do we?


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post Dec 29 2005, 11:35 PM
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What do you mean, ask me to leave?


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post Dec 29 2005, 11:36 PM
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>.< x.x -.- Kill me now, please...?


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post Dec 29 2005, 11:37 PM
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Not before you answer my question.


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post Dec 29 2005, 11:39 PM
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I wasn't talking to you, and I am not going to.


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post Dec 29 2005, 11:40 PM
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;_;

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post Dec 29 2005, 11:44 PM
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*sigh* The darkness closes in, the knife on my skin. No-one cares, let them all hide in their lairs, let them accuse me of crimes I've never done, lookin' out for number one, dyin' and cryin' while I sit here, broken and alone, havin' a right old moan.


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post Dec 29 2005, 11:52 PM
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I am goin' now, see ya this time tomorrow, if I don't kill myself by then. Buh-bye.


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post Dec 30 2005, 12:42 AM
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If this is a parody, then it's really not funny. And if it's genuine (though it does have an air of attempting to be humorous about it), then you need far more help than strangers on an Internet forum can provide.

I'll give you the benefit of the doubt, even though I strongly suspect that you're just trying to have a giggle (trust me, you're really the only one doing so) and just say welcome to the forums, I guess.


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post Dec 30 2005, 12:52 AM
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post Dec 30 2005, 12:53 AM
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You weren't to know this, but there is some history on these forums that means that we don't take discussion of suicide lightly. For all I know you could be very serious about all this, but your style of writing suggests a fairly large dose of goth-parody which means that you are being flippant about killing yourself. That's not something that we really joke about around here, so hold back on that will you please?

That's a nice way of saying 'ease up on the melodrama', many people feel very depressed at one time or another but it's frequently not the end of the world for them and with patience it won't be for you either (still assuming that you're not just taking the mickey).


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