Feeling sick, Eating disorder? =/ Options

[-TheKasbah-]

Anyway, this is the first time I have really asked for any help online. So anyway, here's a little background to what I think led to a suppposed eating disorder.

After last summer, a lot of my friends started drinking a lot more and this really annoyed me because they were becoming really unreliable. Much like my dad had while he was an alcoholic, he walked out on my family. So that basically triggered like a depression sort of thing for around 5 months, maybe more of when I was constantly feeling down and harmed myself a few times when it was really bad.

During the 5 months I had stopped eating as much and lost a lot of weight and I also got semi-somnia which is a form of insomnia brought on by stress. Lately coming up to exams when I have been really stressed, I have stopped eating again, usually about one meal a day and possibly a few snacks because I usually feel sick f I eat any more than that. I am something like 2 stone underweight and I am constantly stressed. It's coming up to my GCSE's in a few weeks and for anyone outside the UK, they are pretty much the deciding exams for what the rest of my life is like, so I could be doing without all these problems.

So if anyone could help me with a) What I might have and b)How I can help get rid of it.
I don't like the idea of going to the doctors so that's pretty much ruled out for now.

Any help would be appreciated, thanks.

[-TheKasbah-]

Thanks, I keep trying to eat but I was on the bus earlier with HALF A SANDWICH and I felt sick! I think it might be with the shrinking stomach as Daria said, but I never thought I would have to start eating stuff that small. I was eating like low fat crisp stuff earlier for lunch which didn't make me feel too bad and they were the healthy kind. I try to snack as much as possible because I know if I try to move on to meals too quick I will just end up throwing up which will leave me worse off than before.

As for the exercise I did plan to go walks with my best friend cause she realised I was really stressed but it seem to have failed and I don't see it happening. Plus when I do exercise I just feel faint cause the the lack of energy from not eating. And masturbation is actually quite hard for me before bed because I live in such a small house with a big enough family, therefore I share a room and my bed creeks when I even turn around, lol. I also have no idea where to get the stuff for Bach flower remedies except a shopping centre which I can rarely ever get to.

And it's not that I don't want to eat, it's just the sick feeling when I do overwhelms my hunger which stops me. I do cook every once in a while but not very often as it is usually make for me coming home meaning it would be late served if I tried other than weekend when I am always out or working. I might use the diary idea as I thought about it before but thought of it as stupid but now it's more serious I want to give everything a try.

And Faerieryn, it's not really that the exams are making me stressed, it's more that I don't eat which takes it's toll on my concentration which makes me think about how I am going to do in my exams which doesn't worry me as much because I already have one of the jobs I've always wanted without any exams being done.

I have only really told my friends about it and some of them are more supportive than others and I suspect a few think I am attention seeking by doing it rather than being serious, no one realised for a while as I always planned to take my one meal a day while others were around so they didn't kind of say, 'Why the hell does Gavin never eat?' and stuff like that. I'm going to try and ignore most of the things that really get me stressed and I hope that helps a bit, atleast until I get things like my exams out of the way. I might go back to my previous activities such as song writing, poetry, guitar etc. which I haven't done in a while and could help me get 'de-stressed'.

But it's good that I see people are trying to help because I usually kind of think people care and stuff when they do help which makes me try harder to get through the tough things such as depression and eating disorders.

So thanks for the help and I'll try to let yous know as often as I can about how I am doing etc. Thanks. =]