Here's Whats Up... Options

[cheese is funny]

ok... i was planning on not telling anyone about this... keeping it a secret.... but i decided not to...

i have ran into a good deal of stress and shit just lately...

1) my parents threatened to kick me out. i cant believe it, i really cant. i know im a pain in the ass, i know im a smart ass, i know i talk back alot, but i never thought it was serious. theres a place inside of me that thinks that they wont do that, but the threats got more frequent just lately.

solution! i do exactly as they say, become a "nice, rule following child"... i feel like a slave... such a whore.... but if it gets them off my ass, im willing to do it.... things have been calm latey... things will be going back to normal sooner or later... or im being too optimistic... one or the other.....

2) im trying to deal with the stress of the really good chance im a loner this year in school. my two only really good friends arent going to be going to my school this year... one is going to some job-school thingy in another city, but his parents said he might not go because his behavior is better, the other is going to another school.... to be quite honest, ive been a loner most of my life, took me to 9th grade to make some real friends that would stick by me when i need them... the chances that i will make more like them this year? slim to freaking none...

solution? none available....

3) horrably HORRABLY depressed lately.... reasons = look above.


so basically, im just trying to deal with life, just trying to get by with whats left of my fragile mentle well being... i will start becoming a frequent here when my family problem is gone, or when i think its gone.

-- jon

[Caughtinlife]

you just gotta hang on in there.. i know how you feel. Me and my mum are constantly in fights and she often tells me to leave but hasnt yet done anything about it... and so i do what you said, but now i feel like im being taken advantage of because now my brother has joined in and they both make me feel like a slave, i have to do everything... luckily we have a cleaner so i nolonger have to clean the house but yea everything else i do... the best thing is to just grin and bear it, but thats such a bitch. Mum doesnt even recognise depression, she reckons im just attention seeking and tells me to stop feeling sorry for myself. It is better at the moment... i think thats only because i gave in and got a job which she made me do, and because im not stressed out because of college... then it gets bad because my brother really stirs things up. Things will get better you just have to remember that..., you wont always live with your parents.
As for being a loner, nothing wrong with that, im always the loner, i prefer being a lone then having to talk to most of the people i come in contact with. I just take a book or a my md to college for something to do in the break. You might make friends, i mean theres a chance your other might come back? or someone new has started. The more you worry the worse the situation can become, chin up theres nothing wrong with being a loner, they are always the most interesting i think.
And when i have found a cure for depression ill get back to you...

I know we dont know one another but if you ever wanted to talk just pm as it sounds like we have very similar situations