Here's Whats Up... Options

[cheese is funny]

ok... i was planning on not telling anyone about this... keeping it a secret.... but i decided not to...

i have ran into a good deal of stress and shit just lately...

1) my parents threatened to kick me out. i cant believe it, i really cant. i know im a pain in the ass, i know im a smart ass, i know i talk back alot, but i never thought it was serious. theres a place inside of me that thinks that they wont do that, but the threats got more frequent just lately.

solution! i do exactly as they say, become a "nice, rule following child"... i feel like a slave... such a whore.... but if it gets them off my ass, im willing to do it.... things have been calm latey... things will be going back to normal sooner or later... or im being too optimistic... one or the other.....

2) im trying to deal with the stress of the really good chance im a loner this year in school. my two only really good friends arent going to be going to my school this year... one is going to some job-school thingy in another city, but his parents said he might not go because his behavior is better, the other is going to another school.... to be quite honest, ive been a loner most of my life, took me to 9th grade to make some real friends that would stick by me when i need them... the chances that i will make more like them this year? slim to freaking none...

solution? none available....

3) horrably HORRABLY depressed lately.... reasons = look above.


so basically, im just trying to deal with life, just trying to get by with whats left of my fragile mentle well being... i will start becoming a frequent here when my family problem is gone, or when i think its gone.

-- jon

[Rattgirl]

*gets in line to give Cheese more hugs*

Sorry to hear you're havin' stressful times, hon. My parents never threatened to kick me out when I was in HS, but that's mostly because I was the "rule following whore" who never did anything to ever upset my mom (if I could help it)....then again, I absolutely ABHORRED my home life growing up as a result of it. Of course, my mother, realizing that I probably wasn't all that happy at home (although never actually knowing it as truth, never mind how MUCH I hated it), figured that keeping me there was a great form of punishment so I couldn't get the hell OUT of the house as much as I wanted to move to my dad's.... sorry, rambling story.

I was a loner in school until my senior year...not because my friends weren't around, but 'cuz I didn't have any friends until senior year (go figure)....but I didn't really enjoy that loner-ish thing either. At least you know you always have friends here that'll be there for you anytime you need 'em! *HUUUGS*