Here's Whats Up... Options

[cheese is funny]

ok... i was planning on not telling anyone about this... keeping it a secret.... but i decided not to...

i have ran into a good deal of stress and shit just lately...

1) my parents threatened to kick me out. i cant believe it, i really cant. i know im a pain in the ass, i know im a smart ass, i know i talk back alot, but i never thought it was serious. theres a place inside of me that thinks that they wont do that, but the threats got more frequent just lately.

solution! i do exactly as they say, become a "nice, rule following child"... i feel like a slave... such a whore.... but if it gets them off my ass, im willing to do it.... things have been calm latey... things will be going back to normal sooner or later... or im being too optimistic... one or the other.....

2) im trying to deal with the stress of the really good chance im a loner this year in school. my two only really good friends arent going to be going to my school this year... one is going to some job-school thingy in another city, but his parents said he might not go because his behavior is better, the other is going to another school.... to be quite honest, ive been a loner most of my life, took me to 9th grade to make some real friends that would stick by me when i need them... the chances that i will make more like them this year? slim to freaking none...

solution? none available....

3) horrably HORRABLY depressed lately.... reasons = look above.


so basically, im just trying to deal with life, just trying to get by with whats left of my fragile mentle well being... i will start becoming a frequent here when my family problem is gone, or when i think its gone.

-- jon

[NummyNums]

Cheese well now im sitting here cring in studyhall and everyone is looking at me funny.. i cant stand that your life is going like that i wish i could do something to help... i really do.. i dont want you to be dperessed babe.... your to great of a person to feel sooo bad..... i wish i could get kicked outta my house then i wouldnt have to deal iwth the nazi parents... *grrrr* im kinda grounded so my only online time is like ... umm schoool... i hate school... I luv Yah so much jon..... feel better sweety e-mail me if you can.....