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Fallen Element
post Oct 6 2004, 11:19 AM
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Hey all, firstly I want to say sorry for not being here for a while - not having my own Internet connection isn't a good thing for me... And secondly - I'm in a dilemma, again.

So, here we go:

I met this guy who was, being totally honest, the future love of my life. He was the sorta guy you want to take home and show your parents. Anyway, we met in an English lecture and hit it off from there. I'm usually quite good at fathoming a person out sexually but he was throwing curve balls all over the place and I couldn't tell if he would be into me. To cut a long story shortish, we went out last night and both got incredibly drunk (which on a student budget amazes me!) and ended back in my room. We sat and talked for hours but the only thing that came of last night is my overwhelming urge to join a monastery, forget all hope of ever finding "The One" and being more in love than ever because he opened up to me too. Being honest, I'm gutted - I thought that something was going to happen and he has been the first real person I have opened up to and felt safe around. So not only do I feel hungover but my emotional insides have been beaten with a blunt, cudgel-like item.

Any suggestions on how to not feel crap and lovetorn.

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Blessings,

Fal xXx


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post Oct 6 2004, 11:25 AM
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Honey, do you mean he opened up to you and somehow got across that he didn't want anything to happen? Cause otherwise, this sounds like a pretty good base for starting something...what exactly went so wrong? Unless it was that nothing happened physically?
*confused* give me more details, missy *hug*


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post Oct 6 2004, 11:30 AM
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Well, we sat and talked and pretty much stated that *me* wasn't his life ideal. Not in a personal way, just in a gender way... Damn me for being, well, male... It was intense, we found ourselves telling each other things that we have never told our closest friends, things that you generally don't tell other people and I thought that something was going to happen - either physical or some sort of affirmation. I wanted to kiss him so bad, especially when we were walking back to mine. He is in my head totally and I can't honestly get him out. Mainly because I'm feeling something other than lust.

Messy emotions...

Fal xXx


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post Oct 6 2004, 11:35 AM
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So let me plunge through this blindly and probably offend you somehow. You're both guys, correct?


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post Oct 6 2004, 11:40 AM
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Hehehe, I will give you a light so you don't plunge so blindly: yeah, both guys!

No offence taken however!

Fal xXx


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post Oct 6 2004, 11:41 AM
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Thank you *sheepish* I wanted to check, etc.
Was it that he isn't sexually attracted to guys, or just not you?


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post Oct 6 2004, 11:45 AM
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Guys. Although he has wandered into that area once or twice he thinks it's not really for him... Which I respect, I don't like it but I respect him. blink.gif

See! I usually don't have that whole respect thing going for me. My mind is being poisoned! Poisoned I say! But what a good way to go...

Fal xXx


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post Oct 6 2004, 11:51 AM
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You're not going after him anyway then? Well, that's probably a good thing, if you respect him. There's nothing to say you can't build on that closeness you had and make him a great friend, right?
I've got a good idea what you feel like though; me and my best friend (he's a guy, which I have no problems with, even though all my friends have girlie best mates) had one of those nights. We got onto relationships, and how easy it'd be to go out, and I would have loved to even then, but he told me we'd never work, and I was gutted.
Ok, it's not exactly the same, but hey. *hugs* I'm here if you want to talk.
What are you going to do?


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post Oct 6 2004, 11:54 AM
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I'm going to do what I always do: bounce back. I figured when I was walking to meet him that even if nothing happened in *that* way, we could still be good friends. I'm still going to make myself available to him, but not as exclusively as I have been. Gah. It's so much easier being a bitch, I don't get hurt as much that way... And yet he broke that part of me.

<<FEELS WEAK>>

Thankee for giving me an ear to pour my ranting into!

Muchos Kisses.

Fal xXx


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post Oct 6 2004, 12:00 PM
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That's perfectly fine smile.gif Let me know how you're doing with it, ok?
Hugs and pie, Char xx


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