i, too, am extraordinarily drunk. like, very very drunk.
but i had a woman buy me some captain morrigan's today. thus far, no toast has been said aloud. i love that boy. loved him. i could care less what tense you use, he is the most wonderful, wonderful thing that has ever happened to me. to myself this evening i said, every drink is for you - every one, and every one was. and now, i'll mix myself a rum n' coke, do what i do every year, and go outside to toast the miracle that dayan is, was, am. whatever. i spoke the truth when i said i've never had a better time in my life than when i was with you.

thank you.

i was going to go to a hot hot heat concert to commemorate him, but my mom wont let me
i think i cried more when he died than anyone else. i wish we could have met.
we miss you dayan