I'm back. Yep.... here i sit before this computer with more questions and comments, but the one that really sticks out now is what happened to me tonight. So me and a friend of mine go to a club where his g/f works. I was talking to someone from there myself, a waitress, we'll call her.... Tammy. Now here it is that i am talking to this beautiful woman with a great personalitie and all i could want. But being me i was prepared for the worst and sure enough tonight i saw her true side. Now not only have we been talking but we have been dateing and have had a sexual relationship. But as always things got to good to be true. One night we are talking and Tammy say's she loves me. I instantly think this is over because i know how it is for me. Now your probely saying" Oh here he goes talking about how bad it is for him all the time" and hey you may be right what do i know? But here it is tonight and what happens ? I walk in the door, am talked to for all of five minutes and then forgotten for the rest of the night, while she was flirting and sitting with the next flavor of the week. Now ok ok sure.. we both agreed that this was not a serious relationship, That we were only dateing and there were no strings attached... But i mean come on didnt she change that when she said "I love you" ?! Doesnt that change the playing feild, I mean really! Thats a whole different ball game. You cant look someone dead in the eye and tell them you love them and how much better they make you feel day by day and not expect things to change in some fashion!!! (Its ok just breath... whoooo) Then on my end to be that person having this happen to him just confirms my thoughts that i can never trust a woman. No i go to far. I cant say trust any woman, there are some out there who deserve trust. But not the ones i meet or am attracted to. And maybe right there it is, haha, maybe i bring this upon myself. Maybe i draw these type's of women to me because i really am afraid of commitment. Maybe its my fear of a relationships That draws me to women who in the back of my mind i know will not be a good realationship. Maybe just maybe... i deserve whatever i get because i do it to myself. Hmmmmm.. well... that'll make ya think huh?Well till next time i'm ........ justwondering
She doesn't sound like she is worth worrying about though. Easier said that done I know but if you want someone who is going to treat you right, get out there and find her. Yeah you're going to be burnt on the way but that's the whole learning curve thing. Word to the wise, speaking from personal experience, if you're going to go out there and date there is nothing more unattractive than talking to someone you like and going on about about how you were treated like poop by your previous partner. Put her away and move on. She doesn't deserve you!