I get these weird periods of "hating everyone"...usually at work when I've decided I've been there long enough, but the boss doesn't seem to agree 'cuz he keeps me there.......and keeps me there.....
and the last two days were all warm and sunny for the FIRST TIME this year, and everyone was outside having fun, and I was stuck in here making stupid sandwiches for even stupider people, and at that point my brain just melted down and I hated everyone who walked in the door. It's a bad thing for me to get to that point, 'cuz I'm not that good at hiding it. The best I can do is a careful and obviously neutral face that just screams "I'm pissed off at you but I'm not showing it!!"
Yah. Or the aforementioned shopping spree with screaming, fighting kids in every aisle. Good times.
I'm sure if I told a shrink this, I would be given drugs to calm my "latent violent tendencies", but I've discovered that when I get in that state of mind, I'm easiest out of it by just imagining doing some heinous things to the people who are pissing me off at the moment. For instance: I see two screaming kids in the store, I imagine stuffing their mouths with oranges and booting them cartoon-style (foot to the rear and all) across the store. It usually makes me feel better...and the weirder the solution, the better it seems to work, 'cuz then I'm laughing semi-evil laughter to myself which makes me feel less hateful. I dunno. What was I talking about again?
An' hon? You know anytime you wanna or need to talk, you can call me right? I mean, yeah it's long distance so ya probably can't all too often, but you know what I mean. Even if it's in the middle of the night here. And I MEAN THAT. Your mental health is important to me