right now I feel like I want to go curl up in a hole and die.
I have a vague idea why, but I'm not entirely sure.
I have four courseowrks on the go at the moment but I have no motivation. One of them is due in tomorrow and I've started it but I just can't concentrate and get it finished. Also my mum and dad are coming up tomorrow and I'm worried they'll have a go at me for not having done any painting yet. Fair enough I could have spent yesterday night doing it instead of going to Rock City but at least I got two, very much needed, hugs there. But I think if I'd stayed home I would have just sat trying to do coursework anyway so I wouldn't have done any painting even if I hadn't gone.
I'm off to see Ag tomorrow night and I'm "owed" about 18 hugs so that should be cool, but I have to tell them that Jem's (Jem is their biggest fan) mum is in hospital and that if they don't at least e-mail her she's never going to go and see them ever again.
I want to go home, be with my friends but they aren't there. My best friend has gone to Sri Lanka for three months and all my other friends are at uni. I can't wait for Easter. And now I have the fact that I never gave my alevel certificates to the uni to prove I got the grades I got just popped into my head and I've gone paranoid that they won't let me go into the second year.
I miss last year. It may sound dumb but if I could do it all again I would, with the good moments and the bad. But maybe I'd also revise for my a-levels and put the effort into the coursework. Even if it means I have to do last Easter all over again.
sorry. I'm done now
so stay alive until you die...